Personlig utveckling igen

Jag var inne på hur jag har utvecklats som person de senaste åren i mitt förra inlägg och jag tänkte fortsätta på det spåret lite, den här gången är det dock kanske inte lika positivt, det beror förståss på hur man ser på saken.

Men när jag flyttade upp till Skellefteå och innan dess dessutom så trivdes jag med att vara själv, inte ha någon i närheten utan vara själv och kunna göra vad man vill. Det tyckte jag var skönt och gillade mitt liv som det var på den tiden. För 1½ år sen ungefär så träffade jag Lisa, vi blev kompisar och kollade på en del film innan vi blev tillsammans för 13 månader sen ungefär. Sen dess har något hänt, jag har blivit social och behöver folk omkring mig känns det som.

Förr var det kul att vara ensam, jag kunde göra vad jag ville och spela så mycke jag orkade. Idag är det bara tråkigt och de här dagarna som har gåt sen jag har kommit upp har jag spelat kanske 2 timmar max även fast jag har varit ledig alla utom en natt. Mitt nertrappande på spelande behöver ju förståss inte bero på att jag är själv och inte har något att spela med utan mer att jag kanske inte har hittat ett spel som intresserar mig atm. Men jag sitter mest o kollar på teve o snackar med Lisa på MSN på kvällarna. Ute är det varmt o skönt men jag gillar värmen på kvällen när det är runt 16 grader, då tycker jag det är som bäst. 30 grader i solen o 50 i lä är lite för varmt, iallefall just nu.

Men jag hoppas det blir och att det kommer kännas bättre längre in i sommar, jag har förhoppningsvis ett hyffsat packat schema med inte allt för många lediga dagar så att jag slipper sitta hemma flera dagar i sträck. Helst av allt skulle ja vilja att du Lisa var här med mig men jag vet att du inte kan det men jag hoppas du kommer upp en stund i sommar iallefall, en långhelg är alltid nått. Älskar dig massor och saknar dig alltid.

Three weeks of catching up

I haven’t posted anything here for a while so I thought I might update with the past weeks experiences. Three weeks ago I got my degree in Game Design and with that the end of my school career on such a high level at least. I spend the rest of that week with playing games and taking it easy before traveling down to Stockholm where I went to a Security course to be prepared for my work during the summer.

The course was nice and the people I read it with was even nicer, we had so much fun so it will be nine day I’ll remember for a while. It all was a mistake since my company gave me papers to the wrong address but my teacher fixed it so I could stay where I was which I’m happy about. We were a really small group compared to the other groups that took the same course but we all connected during the course and it was like you had know them for a long time pretty much.

I also realized how much I have grown as a person the last couple of years; I have taken the course earlier, about four years ago and at that time I was only 20 years old and didn’t like to speak in front of people, a bit nervous the first day and such. This time I traveled to Stockholm and took a cab to my hotel on Sunday, the day before the course began. I only received to papers from my company with no map or instruction on how to get to the place and I had no internet. Four years ago I would have freaked out but this time I took it chill and told myself that it will solve itself out which it did in the end. I met three people at the breakfast that looked as lost as I was so I asked them if they were going to the same place which they were so I joined up with them on the way to Kista. Now a days I speak up in class and not only speak when asked too which feels great, if I’m wrong doesn’t matter, I’m there to learn and if I knew everything I would need to be there.

I have also always been nervous about traveling, my stomach goes into overdrive but with this trip I’ve known that it will all solve itself, if I can’t find a place then I just have to ask someone. I took the train from Eskilstuna where I spent the weekend to Arlanda Airport where I flew home and I feared the worst as it was the first time I would do the trip by train, usually my dad drive me to the airport since he works in Stockholm. I was a little nervous before but when I was on traveling foot it felt great and six hours later I was home in my apartment in Skellefteå. Traveling by train is quite nice, I took the train from Eskilstuna to Stockholm and then further on to Arlanda Airport.

Before I traveled down to Stockholm two weeks ago I ordered a couple of books, one of them were Hiram Bingham’s Lost City of the Incas which I picked up today at the kiosk where my package was sent. I’ve only checked it through but it seems to be a nice book for someone like me who have the interest about Machu Picchu.

The midsummer weekend was nice, Lisa came up to Eskilstuna to celebrate my 24^th birthday and spend the weekend together since she’s home in Linköping over the summer. It was a nice weekend and a nice birthday/midsummer evening. Love you darling!

And if somebody wonder, I haven’t really played a lot of games the last couple of weeks more then Plants vs. Zombies but more about that some other time maybe.